I woke up sometime in the middle of the night to a frantic screeching sound.  Though I had never heard it before, I knew immediately what it was.  And the translation of it was as clear as a bell - "Wake up, there is danger!" My tiny backyard has a cluster of cedar trees.  One of the trunks had grown at a jaunty angle of about 45 degrees.  This is the wildlife highway of my neighborhood.  To my delight, many creatures use it as a handy "ladder" to go up to the tops of the cedars and back down again.  It is right next to my bedroom window and so when the screeching originated from this trunk, there was no way I wouldn't hear it.  I was suddenly awake and trying to make sense of what was happening.  Full panic was coming on, a place where I cannot hear the voice of animals nor my intuition.  I had already perceived that a possum was trying to get me to wake up and hear and respond to his message.  In order for me to fully get what h...

I am from the farmers and the farm, though I know nothing of farming.  I am realizing that I feel the land in my soul and in my DNA. I am from the healers and the healed.  I come from a long road of trauma and tears. I am from the voiceless who now speaks.  Who now teaches.  Who now sings truth. I am from the bodiless who now fully inhabits one of tender healing, precious function, and yearning passion.  I am from this planet, and other planets, and stars with kinfolk near and far.  I am from Source - Creator - The Divine which is also my core, a fractal of the whole.  I am from me.  What I know after today: I really miss writing. https://susan-fullmer.squarespace.com

I skirted into Yellowstone a bit as I was driving along highway 101. It's a shame that I can't explore the interior of that mysterious land but there has been major flooding this year and many of the main roads have been washed away. I haven't been there since I was in my 20s - I'm going to call that a crime given the fact that I don't live very far from Yellowstone National Park. Trust me, it's back on my Bucket List and moving up fast in priority. Even on the parameter I could feel that the energy there is very special. Unique to say the least. I must return!

I’m packing and getting ready to leave my sister and brother-in-law's house.  My sister got sick (she’s better now) but we canceled our road trip to Tennessee so she could rest up.  In the meantime, I got a good rest of my own in a lovely home surrounded by nature (including a hiking path practically at their back door which I utilized once or twice a day).  It turned out to be just what I needed.  I leave today feeling peacefully rested and in the flow.  I’m not leaving too soon, nor have I outstayed my welcome. As I’m In the bathroom packing up I see a medium sized spider.  I constantly get messages from nature and animals.  But long ago, I told the creatures of this world that I will not receive information from them if they are inside my house.  Spiders, ants, moths - you name it.  And if they come into my house, they have to leave.  If I can make that happen humanely, I will.  If not, then they will be moving on to their next l...

I opened up my laptop and the screen showed a wonderful aerial photo of a group of zebras on the move.  It felt like there was a message there for me so I asked and sure enough, the zebras had something to say.  I have been getting messages this morning about how much my sister loves me and I love her.  This may not seem like much but with someone with an abuse history, feeling the love (even if it’s genuinely there) can be difficult.  That has been a main theme of my life’s journey and my healing path continues to bring me to a deeper and deeper sense of the love that surrounds me.  It is truly humbling and awe inspiring.   This has also been an issue with my family at large.  I am the black sheep.  I left the norms of my family’s structure long ago.  Some have been more accepting of me than others.  I have come to peace with that.  I would rather be hated for who I am (real me) than loved for who I am not (fake me).  But...

This afternoon I set out to get some juice for my sister and me.  She isn’t feeling well and I found a great place that makes the best juicer-juice.  Nothing but the veggies!  It would be a supportive boost for both of our immune systems - hers for healing and mine for guarding.  After the acquisition of juice and sundry items, I was heading back when Spirit told me to turn left… and keep going.  I traveled the better part of the valley.  It was a spectacular view of a long running rim of sandstone.  Eighty million years ago this was the shore of the Western Interior Seaway from Mexico to the Arctic North.  Now it’s a pretty view.  And this can be said from down below where I drove it’s length and also from up above where my sister and brother-in-law live.  I felt like Spirit was telling me it was important that I view the entirety of this particular land mass, which I did from end to end.  And then I headed back wondering if a land...

Leaving Challis this morning, I headed north on highway 93 which meanders along the scenic Salmon River through the town of Salmon and then on up into Montana where I made a sharp right at a mountain summit onto highway 43.  As I came down into the lower valley I became the tail end of not one, but two small town fourth of July parades!  I’d almost forgotten it was the 4th.  A few people waved so I smiled and waved back.  What else was I to do?  I stopped in Wisdom Montana to find a coffee and a bathroom - not in that order.  They were so nice there.  I don’t know if it was because everyone was in a jovial holiday mood or that’s just the way they do things in Wisdom, but the people were friendly and the coffee was free!  I did ask how they got their name (one of the coolest town names I have ever heard).  I was told that Lewis and Clark traveled through this valley on their way to the Pacific Ocean.  They were happy with the decision of ...